On The Edge

I wish I could be better.

I wish I was skinnier.

I wish I didn’t have this passion

I wish people cared

I know why you jumped

I know why you pulled the trigger

I know why you tipped the stool

I know why the hose was in your cracked window

It shouldn’t be this tempting

It shouldn’t be a forgone conclusion

It shouldn’t be the only answer

It shouldn’t be, It shouldn’t be

I fear tomorrow without you

I fear your voiceless feelings

I fear I am why

I fear death

What if there is no heaven or hell?

What if we don’t even know we are not breathing?

What if we do?

What if there is only darkness and my time is soon forgotten?

There are many who never have the answer

There are few that do

There are some who act

There are some who don't

And yet, still, you’re gone

And yet, I sometimes envy you

And yet, sometimes I hate you

And yet, sometimes I hate me

I miss your voice

I need your wisdom

I feel alone

Especially so high up

I need to know where you went

I need to see you again

I need to go

See you soon